byebye FHDA

Two years went by so fast. I'd have to say, I enjoyed it very much. Hasn't really sunk in yet...the fact that I'll be leaving Bay area in 3 months. Been living in San Jose ever since I got here (almost 4 years ago). Now that I'm heading to LA, feeling a mixture of sadness, nostalgia, anxiousness and maybe a tiny hint of excitement, but mostly just sadness and nostalgia.

Playing back all the memories in the past two years...all the people I've passed by, exchanged glances, been in a group with, worked together, talked to and befriended. Been thinking maybe everyone else is right on this: should really keep in touch with all these lovely people that have once been a part of my life.

Don't know why it's different this time. Felt the same mixture of sadness, nostalgia, anxiousness and excitement, but for all the previous times, excitement took the biggest chunk. Maybe, I know myself a little better this time around. I know I probably won't be BFFs with them, I know I probably will lose touch with them, I know one of those nights I'll probably miss them so very very much but never find the courage to ask them out, I know after a long time I'll probably think to myself...dang it. Maybe, knowing all of this just makes it so much harder this time around.

us no more

Remember two posts ago I said "two more quarters to go and I'm already starting to miss them"? Well, turned out there was only one left...

At least the three of us finally got a picture together.

We planned to take physics 4D together with Marasco but it conflicted with math 22, we needed the math more. I still have math 22 to Jonathan and George and math 2B with Oscar. But there's no more us...Even Fors knew we were the trio and in our case, trio - 1 = nothing.

I know I've said this about a billion times now, but I honestly really liked us. Physics was so enjoyable with you guys. I know we have our differences, we get into a gazillion little fights and arguments. That doesn't matter though, at least in my opinion, we were awesome.

I know I said I don't keep in contact with my old friends and I forget them, but know that I will definitely miss you guys a lot. If after a while, we lose touch, understand that it's not because I've forgotten about you, it's because I'm not brave enough to overcome the awkwardness that's only in my head.

P.S. I've been watching Tangled over and over ever since I got it. It may very well be my favorite movie now!

10:52 pm

Noticed I have not posted a blog here for a long time. It's either because nothing has excited me enough to motivate me to write or it's because I've been a little more busy this quarter, for some kind of reason that is still unclear to me at the moment. I'm taking pretty much the exact same classes as last quarter. For some reason though, I'm so much busier this quarter.

I'd like to say that my life's been a whole jumbo mix of little messes, but I'd be lying. I've got nothing on my plate except for school lately.

I have always wanted a secret hide-out place where I could just be there, be still in solitude and no one would find me. I have got this place in mind for a long time, but I haven't been able to track it down until now. I think I have an idea where it might be. I shall go check it out soon. If it is as perfect as I had remembered it to be, it will probably become my hide-out place. Of course, it being a "secret" hide-out place, I can't reveal where it is located. So, sorry to myself in 50 years, when I read this but can't remember where it is, I won't be able to find the answer here.

On another note, Alpha's been good. I took him out of his tank for the first time to clean his tank. He seemed pretty pleased about his clean tank.